My Diary

#TTT-Down, But Not Out.

Dear Diary.

I woke up feeling really low today. Perhaps because I slept with a heavy heart. I am at that point where I am juggling many things and finding it hard to cope. Many of us out here have those moments too so I know you can relate. One thing you need to know is, it’s ok to break down. I broke down. Tears and all, because I felt defeated. That’s the worst kind of feeling to have. When you want to do the right thing, you can see the end goal but each time you take ONE step forward, something happens and you find yourself 10 steps back.

Like you are on the wrong escalator. You trying to go up, but the damn thing is sliding back!

In all this despair, I thank God I have a good support system. My family. They always hold me down. My boys always tell me it’s gonna be ok. I may vent when they tell me that, but deep down I accept and carry that positivity with me. It’s not easy. I keep telling myself that this too shall pass. Things will align and I shall accomplish my goal. A thought came to me today and I want to end this #TTT entry with it.

When physically tired, sleep. When spiritually tired, PRAY.

I believe that is what God was trying to tell me while at the back of that Uber, feeling tired, sleepy and spiritually weak. Everybody hurts sometimes. Moan about it,vent even, break down, but rise to your feet, or fall to your knees and pray for the strength to move on.

So excuse me as I go talk to the author and finisher of my faith. And boy don’t I have A LOT to tell Him.

Love. Live. Learn

Mwalimu Rachel.

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